i’m back. in your mind. your vision. your heart. your little screen. it’s been a while.
i’ve been in exile, on a treacherous journey through hell and purgatory, to reach heaven. the descent into hell is easy, but crawling out is torturously laborious. or however virgil said it.
i can’t hide from the inevitable, i guess it’s my destiny to pursue creating erotic and pornographic art, as well as continuing to learn, grow and develop my knowledge and understanding of everything about the human psyche. particularly the psychology of sexuality, relationships, oppression, inequality, & gender, as well as pursuing my endless theories about emotional immaturity and abuse. i want to move away from the clockwork content cycle, it’s not how i want to create content – well i don’t even want to create “content”, i want to create art. i dropped out of university where i was doing a double degree in graphic design and marketing. i couldn’t stand the idea of being a human art factory. i’m fascinated by human behaviour and how we feel about beauty, be it nature or a purely post-modern man made creation. so while i love marketing and design as concepts and practices, i am first and foremost, an artist.
creating for profit on a schedule will never work with me. i am a documenter, a writer, an artist who wants to both capture and create. i’ve declared this year as my year of creativity, specifically art and music.
i realised i won’t be able to go back to university until i’m a rich bitch, so without the degrees i would love to have, to be able to talk and write about relationships, mental health, coping mechanisms, identity, society, trauma, & gendered issues… i just have to be an artist, a muse, a coach, a paid girlfriend, an informal healer, an entertainer.
there are certainly worse fates.
i want to do more than just churn out videos, i want to create a sense of connection, both online and offline. but i also wanna do some super slutty fun stuff too.
V xx