date: — 26/11/2022 —
mood: kicking ass and determined
song: gimme the cure by fugazi
i’m finally feeling a bit better, thank fuck! ptsd has fried my brain so hard, but friends and lovely subscribers makes me happy, so i’m managing to pull myself thru this extra long winter fog thats lasted most of spring too.
i’ve cleaned and reorganised my office, i’m exercising again, smoking less weed and allowing my brain to handle my stress rather than blazin’ it away. now i just gotta get my self-esteem back into gear so i feel like a sexy bad bitch again, instead of sad stoned human puddle.
i’m finally horny again, and i really wanna get back to filming, and even start streaming regularly. i’m just trying to work hard on gettin my life together, and the more together it is, the more horny i am, the more creative i am, and the sluttier i wanna be. i wanna create really cool videos, i’ve done my dash with getting the lighting perfect, now i want to explore different lighting ideas, and hopefully audio in the future, i’d love to do an up-close asmr slow mo cumming video with lots of moaning and squelchy noises and the focus shifting between the foreground and background, my face and my pussy.
anyway, mental health rules, rock on. i very much appeciate my wonderful subscribers + followers, the love + gifts make me feel so appreciated.
xx V